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mylastchance) wrote2016-06-24 12:25 pm
mylastchance) wrote2016-06-24 12:25 pm
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Initiation
It was finally time. After a year of training and studying by his Master's side he had finally proved himself ready and worthy to undergo the sacred rites. Tonight Lauren was going to be inducted into the Druid's secret order. He knew the words to speak, he'd practiced, but he had no idea what to expect. He was excited and anxious all at the same time. He felt sick to his stomach. This was the moment he had been working for and now it was finally here.
There was one problem, however. The ceremonies of the druids were a secret known only to them, and Susan, as an outsider, would not be allowed to go. The reason this was so problematic was because neither Susan nor Lauren had been without each other since the death of their parents two years before. Lauren was nervous at the thought of leaving his brother. He worried what Susan would do without him. Would he eat enough food? Drink enough water? Stay safe? He didn't like not knowing where his brother was, and he didn't like not knowing who he was with. Still, despite all his concerns, he could manage. Teacher had promised somebody strong and good would look after him, and so Lauren knew his worries were likely unfounded. No, now it was Susan who was proving to be the problem.
"I'm sorry I have to leave you behind." he murmurs, sitting on his sleeping furs, dressed in a simple white robe he had to put on for the ceremony.
OOC Note: Reposted from a locked entry.
There was one problem, however. The ceremonies of the druids were a secret known only to them, and Susan, as an outsider, would not be allowed to go. The reason this was so problematic was because neither Susan nor Lauren had been without each other since the death of their parents two years before. Lauren was nervous at the thought of leaving his brother. He worried what Susan would do without him. Would he eat enough food? Drink enough water? Stay safe? He didn't like not knowing where his brother was, and he didn't like not knowing who he was with. Still, despite all his concerns, he could manage. Teacher had promised somebody strong and good would look after him, and so Lauren knew his worries were likely unfounded. No, now it was Susan who was proving to be the problem.
"I'm sorry I have to leave you behind." he murmurs, sitting on his sleeping furs, dressed in a simple white robe he had to put on for the ceremony.
OOC Note: Reposted from a locked entry.
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He doesn't find comfort in Susan's warmth at his side, and part of him wants to push the other boy away. If it wasn't for Susan he wouldn't even be here right now. He could be in town, living in a house. He could go to the initiation tonight and do whatever he wanted to. He wouldn't have to worry about anyone else.
In the end he stands, going over to his pack, and tearing the robe off to put his tunic back on, his breaches still covering his legs. He wipes his face on the white of the fabric before ditching it on his furs.
"I just need to be alone for a while." he murmurs voice still shaky. "I'll be fine."
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"...Okay..."
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He loves this view, he loves the feeling of being connected to something bigger. The sky was vast and empty, and the wind rustled through the leaves making him shiver. Lauren was a small part of this world, but this world was not just a bystander in his life. No, this world was alive, just as much as he was. It was a living breathing thing that needed him, and all creatures, to work. He didn't feel so alone when he truly saw all the life that was around him.
He stands, balancing carefully on the branch below his feet as he breathes deep the cold air of the upper atmosphere. He can see the sun as it starts to sink lower in the sky and the shadow of the moon that sits high above him. The sting of the cold fills his lungs and burns his cheeks, still wet from his crying. He closes his eyes tight before he opening his mouth and shouting into the open air. He lets out everything he's feeling in this one single sound. Birds scatter and rabbits flee, but he keeps shouting until his lungs burn.
He finally draws a breath, and he's panting. Fresh hot tears have traced their way down his face and drip from his chin. He's gasping for breath and it's the only thing he hears. He sits on the branch, leaning against the tree, and he stares, wind and mind silent as he continues to cry. The water from his tears falls to the earth below for others to eat with, grass and plants and flowers using his sorrow to nourish their own growth.
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For a while Susan waits for Lauren, hoping he'll come back, but as the time stretches on he starts to worry. What if something happened to him? What if he got hurt or lost or ran away? The thought makes him upset, and so he quickly stands and starts off in the direction that he saw Lauren go in. Of course he doesn't actually know where Lauren is, and so it's hard to try and find him... So really this is just him wandering through the forest, looking around and calling out his brother's name every so often.
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A panic quickly begins to set in as he turns in circles around the clearing looking for his brother. He searches around the perimeter of their campsite calling Susan's name into the forest, but there's no reply. A look at the sky confirms the sun is low, and only getting lower. Very soon it will be dark. Taking a breath, Lauren closes his eyes, telling himself to stay calm and focus. Panicking now wasn't a help to anyone.
Breathing in deep, and then slowly exhaling he opens his eyes, and looks around one more time, this time with a hunter's mind. He searches everywhere for tracks, displaced foliage, broken twigs, anything that might give him an idea as to his brothers direction. he finds a place where the grass has been trampled recently, and hopes it's his brother as he begins following. It works for a while, but eventually the grass turns to hard dirt, and he can follow no longer. He closes his eyes, thinking, when he hears it. To his left a rabbit hops, hiding under the brush. If he could just, concentrates, feeling the nature around him in his mind and how it connects them all. The same life that flowed through him in the life of this rabbit too. The creature stills, and stares at him, and when Lauren looks at it again he knows it will help him how it can.
He asks the creature if he has seen Susan, and he asks him to show him the way. The rabbit shuffles around a bit, thinking and taking it's sweet time with it, bet eventually takes off quickly in a direction to Lauren's left. He follows without hesitation, calling Susan's name as the get further from camp, and hopefully closer to his brother. Soon enough they are within Susan's range, and Lauren's calls to Susan ring loud in Susan's ears.
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As soon as he hears Lauren's voice he turns in that direction, still sniffling.
"Lauren!"
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"Shhh, it's alright, you're okay."
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"Y-you were gone, so long..."
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"I don't know..."
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"Promise."
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"But. It's okay, sometimes... To be alone."
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"You butt-head, how would I have found you if you'd gotten lost in the dark?" he asks, still smiling. He musses Susan's hair with his hand.
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"Let's go home."
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"You should change your clothes."
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"What's wrong with these?"
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"I don't smell that bad."
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"No, you need to put them on 'cause, you need to go to your trip."
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"Susan...?"
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"Yeah?"
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